I felt like the world around me was black and white. In 2016 my life took a turn when I got married and started to take hormonal birth control (HBC).
At the beginning, I did not realize how my body was reacting to it in a bad way until things that had never happened before hit me. After a year, I noticed I had no emotions and this may sound weird but I made myself be upbeat and happy all the time while inside things didn’t really make sense. It was like I was numb to everything around me.
As months passed by, things started to get worse, and I didn't recognize myself. I had the feeling “someone else” was living inside of me and I didn’t know who she was. Towards the end of my pill pack I would become extremely irritated. Sometimes I'd wake up screaming because of little things my husband was doing ( like brushing his teeth while the faucet was open) to crying like a baby minutes later.
I remember telling my husband, “I don’t know what is wrong. I don’t recognize myself.” Weird feelings came in waves and I felt so overwhelmed. After some self analyses and a lot of reading I figure out what was the cause of it all, hormonal birth control.
Then I decided it was time to stop taking it. It was time to let my body do what it had been designed to do. It was time for me to learn how my body worked, because I was 28 years old and I had no idea how complex and amazing a woman is throughout her cycle. My eyes were opened and I found ways to naturally support myself in each phase of my cycle. I kept implementing a new protocol and I wasn’t irritated by small things anymore, I wasn’t feeling down and sad anymore. In 2021 I decided to become a Fertility Awareness Instructor and have not looked back.
I now see life in colors again. I am just so glad that I became aware of my cycle and of who I am. It is exciting to be able to support all the feelings and emotions that come my way throughout the month. I have a protocol to guide me each day so I can live my best life. My cup has been overflowing, and because of that I can also help other women to get to know themselves better while finding a protocol that fits their busy life.
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